April 14th - Most of this time, my focus has been on: 1) inner change, and 2) the lack of outer transformation. Secretly, while this mind has been playing its games, a whole lot of really cool transformation has been taking place.

For one, we started a Yahoo group called InnerPeaceCircle. We haven't really promoted it, but people are joining up, excited about the possibilities of this. Our sit will be over in about 5 days, but there is no reason that the group must dissolve at that point. A new thing is emerging - a mobile peace force - able to gather together at any specified location, bringing warmth and radical peace to social climates that might benefit. There is a general feeling that we are part of something right. Not sure exactly what it is or how it might take shape, but the possibilites are alive.

Sure, there was never an overwhelming turnout for our event, but we never really tried. We kept it real. The fact that people have continued to come and feel uplifted has been incredibly worthwhile. And it's not just mild inspiration. The sense that this is vitally important is definitely in the air.

Our Inner Peace Circle has a life of its own. Without the inspiration, support, and expressed interest to keep going from so many different fronts, this would have came to a close a while back. It is a collective will that is keeping our movement alive.

There is no telling how many people have walked past our group, engaged in deep and sincere meditation, and been affected in one way or another. Mother Theresa once said, "We can do no big things; only small things with great love." What we are doing is tiny, but it is with great love and now, as much as ever, that great love is desperately needed.

Even riding home on BART (local train), it's just so evident how many people are deeply confused and cut off. Just being involved in this changes my energy and people take notice. It lifts them up. It makes them see. I'm as deeply flawed as anyone else, but in making a choice, even for a moment, to be true, some kind of change takes place. The circle is not ours; though small, it is eternal and as we humbly bow to some kind of existential purity, whatever it may be, it draws us in. One day, this circle will embrace us all.