April 12th -

I saw a newborn baby with wild wolves all around it, I saw a highway of diamonds with nobody on it, ... And it's a hard, and it's a hard, it's a hard, it's a hard, And it's a hard rain's a-gonna fall. Bob Dylan

A hard rain came a-falling today. Right on top of our Big Day! Hooray!! Washing away any expectations...

We sat down in the midst of it. Thunder rocked the sky and the cold rain came down hard and somehow found its way to our vulnerabilities. With all the noise, rain, distractions, doubts, responsibilties, it was by far the least intensive of any of our sits.

Once again, there are serious doubts about whether to keep going. The purpose of this has been two-fold: 1) a 'political' or social action/solution, 2) a genuine spiritual surrender. Either of the two can exist on their own, but this has been an experiment in bringing the two together. Now that it's apparent that continuing is likely to bring only a mild social effect, the question is: keep going as a spiritual journey or stop and move onto other things. There is so much work to be done in so many ways. To cling to a mediocre idea is just an unfortunate waste of time. Where is the most life? Most light? Most love?

There are moments of clarity when it is fully understood that reaching in and awakening to divinity and walking that in the main stream is the greatest use of time... keep going! These moments of clarity are like islands surrounded by oceans of reason, practicalities, doubts...

There is no one right answer. Whichever choice feels the most true will be the winner and as long as it is chosen in that spirit, it is right.

There's a highway of diamonds and some of us are ready to walk it. It's only a matter of time until everyone recognizes its beauty and comes along.