April 8th - So much doubt.

Came very close to giving up today. Special encouragement from those close by made it clear that these actions are not merely some frivolous excess, but really mean something very special to a bunch of us.

A close friend who has been an integral part of the circle shared an excerpt from an e-mail he wrote to a friend of his today:

The Civic Center meditation is going well. I am really enjoying it. I mean any time i am doing 2 hour sits i usually feel pretty good. But this feels more significant. I mean all the horrific sh** going down is hard for me to deal with so i am channeling that energy into this. I mean the solution to these problems is only going to come through a change in consciousness and that starts inside. So it feels like it is doing some good at the very least for my own spiritual progress but also for people in this culture to get used to seeing people sitting for meditation. Eventually they will become curious about what is going on inside their own mind and look inside for themselves, and that is it, that is the goal. To get people to be more mindful, more present. If we focus on that then no need to worry about social justice and all that. It will happen naturally as a result of increased awareness.